Smith's Sorrow: 'Dark Days Where I Couldn't Get Out Of Bed'
Steve Smith has fronted the media for the first time since being suspended for ball tampering in March.
Smith addressed reporters at the Sydney Cricket Ground after training with the Sydney Sixers, a team he has represented in the past.
He spoke of the tough time he went through, and continues to go through after being stripped of his Australian captaincy and handed a nine month suspension.
"I'm going okay now, initially after South Africa I was going through a bit, I was in a pretty dark space, I had some tough days, they're few and far between now," he said in a long and wide-ranging press conference.
"There has been some dark days where I didn't want to get out of bed."
Smith admitted that it was a failure of his leadership values that he turned a blind eye to the events that happened in South Africa, where vice-captain David Warner and bowler Cameron Bancroft were involved in a plan to use sandpaper on the ball.
"I walked past something and had the opportunity to stop it and I didn't do it, and that was my leadership value," he said.
"I said 'I don't want to know about it', and I walked away.
"The potential for something to happen, and it went on and happened on the field, and I had the opportunity to stop it at that point rather than say 'I don't want to know anything about it', that was my failure of leadership."
Smith praised Cricket Australia for its independent review and consequent culture changes in the wake of the scandal.
"I think it's great the organisation had an independent review, any good business round the world has an independent review," he said.
"We've seen changes already. It gives the organisation the opportunity to move forward and get better."
He also praised Australian Test captain Tim Paine's leadership through the rebuilding stages of the team.
"Tim Paine's leadership been exceptional since taking over as captain, he was obviously faced with difficult circumstances to begin with and he's done a terrific job," he said.
Smith defended his appearance in a Vodafone advert, after many took exception to the disgraced former captain for profiting from his part in the ball tampering scandal.
"I am getting paid, but I am also putting forward funds to the Gotcha4Life sessions," he said.
"We haven't figured out where it is all going, but in the new year we will sit down and figure out where that is all going."
He did not confirm how much he was paid for the Vodafone spot, nor what percentage of that fee would be going to charity.
Smith had intended to play in the Bangladesh Premier League Twenty20 starting January 5, but was barred over a technicality.
He had been signed to play for the Comilla Victorians as a replacement for Pakistani cricketer Shoaib Malik, but the signing was opposed by other franchises in the league.
Rules of the competition state a replacement player must be in a list of initial draft players, and as Smith's name was not on the list Bangladesh's Cricket Board banned the signing.
Smith was signed as marquee player in the inaugural Global T20 Canada cricket tournament in May, playing for the Toronto Nationals.
He has three months left to serve of his ban.