Ariana Grande: "Can’t Even Say ‘Good Morning’ To Anyone Without Crying"
It's no secret that Ariana Grande has had a tough couple of years.
She's just been named Billboard magazine's Woman of the Year, and kept things incredibly real and raw throughout the accompanying interview.
“I just hope you’re okay with me crying, because that’s not going to not happen. I can’t even say ‘Good morning’ to anyone without crying," she said.
Tearing up as she reflected on the tumultuous time she's been through over the past few years, Ari said:
"I guess there’s not much I’m afraid of anymore. When life tries you with such serious shit so many times, your priorities change. I don’t give a shit. I just want to be happy and healthy -- one day -- and make music.”
Describing herself as both "really lucky and really unlucky at the same time", the singer declined to dish on the reasons behind her break up from ex-fiancé Pete Davidson, but revealed that she did give him a heads up before dropping "thank u, next".
“I wasn’t going to blindside anybody," she said.
Of the song, which hit #1 on the Billboard chart, Ariana said that it's fast become her favourite of all her singles.
“It’s me and my besties tipsy off champagne -- and me with my broken heart -- just letting it out and having fun,” she shared. “I love this more than any other song I’ve ever put out.”
Despite only just releasing her latest album Sweetener in August, Ari's not planning on slowing down any time soon. In fact, there's a whole new album that's set to drop whenever she's ready.
After tweeting recently that she was sick of conforming to the "routine" of album releases as 'eras', Ari expanded on this in her interview with Billboard, discussing the pressure to "conform to the pop star agenda" and double standards women in the music industry face.
“To drop a record on a Saturday night because you feel like it, and because your heart’s going to explode if you don’t -- to take back your narrative,” she said. “I don’t want to do what people tell me to do, I don’t want to conform to the pop star agenda. I want to do it on my own terms from now on. If I want to tour two albums at once, I’m going to tour two albums at once. If I want to drop a third album while I’m on tour [in 2019], I’ll do that too! Please.”
“My dream has always been to be -- obviously not a rapper, but, like, to put out music in the way that a rapper does. I feel like there are certain standards that pop women are held to that men aren't. We have to do the teaser before the single, then do the single, and wait to do the preorder, and radio has to impact before the video, and we have to do the discount on this day, and all this shit. It’s just like, ‘Bruh, I just want to fucking talk to my fans and sing and write music and drop it the way these boys do. Why do they get to make records like that and I don’t?’ So I do and I did and I am, and I will continue to.”
As for her new album, Ari said that it was the result of “feminine energy and champagne and music and laughter and crying”.
“This [album’s] not particularly uplifting," she revealed. "A lot of it sounds really upbeat, but it’s actually a super sad chapter."
At least one of the tracks on the album will be about Mac Miller, her ex-boyfriend who passed away from an accidental drug overdose in September.
Before the interview, Ariana had been working on the song, and speaking to the interviewer, she said that she felt like she was "onto something" when they first recorded "The Way" the 2013 track from her debut album, Yours Truly.
“It felt like, ‘I should do this forever’,” she said of working with Mac.
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